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happy 2008wow 2008 tomorrow! wishing everyone a happy new year!!! lots love from xinzhu & mic I always been enjoying girl friends' company. I remember when i was younger whenever im with my 'bunch' we used to tease those boys who think they can get any girls if they use their 'bodily charms'. We are not bullies we are just think 'boys are stupid, throw stones to them' haha and then i grow up a bit more and become a bit more mature and wiser i start to compete with them and feel we are more equal and balanced with each other. My hormone kicked in at the time to help as well haha. I did met some men i could throw a very deep conversation with but just somehow missing that closeness when you with your girl friends. I always think it is probably me, my relationship with men not always be that smooth. Mic says to me i am really girls girl and thats true. To start with. Me and my mum have been very close, i talk about everything and anything to my mum i think she is great person to talk to. Even mic said you and your mums relationship is really envious. And coco i met here been my great friend she brought a lot fun to my life she is a great person to be friend with. I do miss her a lot sometime. You do not make friends everyday. Coco used to say sometimes one true friend of life time is enough, which i agree. People with quality are hard to come by. Last time i was on the phone with my mum i said one of the most difficult things for human being to master is to learn to control ourselves. And to be able to do that you need a degree of self consciousness. Basically you need to know who you really are. My feeling of this is before you could learn yourself you have to learn what is other people like. It is very common sense if i gave you a example. Just say you want to know if you are a very selfish person or not. You have to know what defines selfishness. Once you come cross someone who are selfish and people point out that is selfish you start to gather information and to learn what kind of behavior is defined as selfishness. So then once you or other people show that kind of behavior later on you would be able to conclude that. Thats why i say if someone do not know how to read some other people that person definately have troubles knowing himself. It is been a great week working with people in the hospital, i totally enjoyed it. My surrounding is all nurses patients this and that i felt a bit lost in directions. I contacted coco last time which does bring some of my motivation back to throw my self back to the uni soon. I want to give myself a kick before i am all wrinkled up haha. I love to be a nurse in a management position and also i want to do something different. I enjoy working with charge nurse because she always put me in charge of the whole ward and i do enjoy managing people and the rest of everything and ive been told im up for a pay rise very soon haha. a few things to sayi will be heading home on chinese new year this feb, just got my annual leave planned and more im taking mic home with me haha, eyeing for the good food and some festival treat wa haha i seriously cannot wait. and coco im def going to have party with and lots more others im going to meet haha cannot wait... im going to join the nhs bank and ditch this agency. and im going to start my driving license cos the hospital i work at is an community hospital which means there is duty to do as district nurse slow?!i sometimes think i have got all the wrong combinations of my personality. what i meant wrong is most of them does not interact good when they are together. just like if you use some drugs together they generate side effect. people told me all the time once you start working you need to be able to adapt i always wonder how it works exactly. thank for god i was educated to have a sensible mind. adapting does not mean you follow the crowd but to know how to control and handle the situation. social class ¤ attitudepeoples attitude divide social class. if you can condense my last two weeks experience into one sentense. thats the one. attitude is like your face it tells who you are and where you belong to. think about the people you ever worked with are they polite or spitting shit (swearing) or very organised or very messy. er...the weird thing is i could not finish the last entry and neither can not edit it so i rather delete the lame attempt. the very reason i want to leave nursing is to ditch those unhealth attitude and the same reason i am being very careful of who i am close with. i am not a person can be influenced easily but i believe human being can fall weak quickly. just like if you allow yourself to be lazy and not to brush your teeth for one night. one night will become two night and will become forever ever. 孔。最近心情很好, 原于前些日子‘闭关‘ 休养生息了一阵, 主要是前一段日子找工作比较烦躁。 闭关主要在读咱们‘老家‘的德行, 道德的德, 行道的行。 想起要给荣辉写一封长信, 写写最近的感受, 挺想念她和我的那种亲近。 最近看的书我就不推荐了, 很大一部分是道派, 阴阳无极, 中医这方面的东西。 一直认为这些东西有点迷信的成分, 但真要看进去了, 觉得很佩服咱们的古人, 也有点惭愧, 作为咱们龙的传人, 咱们老先辈的东西竟然完全不清楚。 上次去理发,给我剪头发的小伙子说香港是中国的首都吧,我一笑, 顺便就给他将了段历史, 小伙子说了一句,我知道孔夫子, 我一笑。 原来能把香港说成中国的首都, 孔夫子却没搞错。 我说我们的孔夫子根你们的莎士比亚在名分上有一拼。 大家都笑了。 挺自豪的走出了理发馆。 哈哈。
听我下回分析。。。
That's today's so far i can remember of my life.
Got up near noon.
Got airmail from 'Belgie of present for Mic on Valentines day ''Supposed'' Althought it was one day late but still quite impressed by three days' super fast international delivery service.
Switched on pc got on internet as usual, feeling content of the free service.
Switched on TV, making something to eat whilst watching Richard & Judy. Talked about some freak eater and this book called Restless, It's about someone found out his mum is not a ordinary mum but a Russian Spy and how her life ended up to be - obvious restless.
Talked with my mum on Skype.
Michael came back from college and fell asleep on sofa. Showed him the CDs I bought for him, his all time favourite and very classic for all. - legend, thats how other people express it.
Watched Verdict the last episode on TV, loved it and told by michael everyone can be the Jury if you been picked to do the service. Totally amazed and excited by his word. Had seen this black dude's attitude very annoying, asked michael why most black peoole i'v seen need constant approval as long as they think they have achieved something. why cannot they just stay 'put' and being modest.
Logged on internet and my account in Amazon and bought a bargain book and had put more books in my wish list. Checked bookseller's previous reviews and was reasonably OK - that means quite trustworthy to buy from this seller. one of the bad reviews (1 out of 5) caught my eyes the buyer's comment - It took 3 weeks to deliver and i could have wrote it - makes me laugh.
I'm such a internet opportunist, actually there is a old saying: There are many opportunists and few men of principle. I believe if there is no 'guidelines' or 'conduct' to follow we will all be sinned, corrupted... whatever you name it, and how religions make sure people are doing what they been told is to foreseen the consequence... and thats quite straight forward. eg, shoplifting - punishment.
basically if you got my message from above, i have free wireless internet now, my laptop just pick up the singal then im on it now totally free of charge. i finally moved to our one bed room flat, a lot of things need to be done, a lot of first times to celebrate, eg, mic done his first poo,haha. the location is superb, with walking distance to town center and at the back is the botanic garden if any of us fancy a bit greeny pastime. last time mic was looking to find the frame for 'good wife guide' (his cheeky thing) and im screwing my head to come up with some ideas to have some arty painting in my room with very little cost. then i found those canva papers and shoe box cover and some oil pating kits and some good arty senses. done! who says poor people cannot have 'quality of life' haha. im reading the book 'watching the english' i bought from charity shop. i like the english people's DRY very dry humour... haha. 不知道该说什么!工作的事情呢, 我这个月还没有发出任何cv, 觉得是时候该upgrade/improve 我的cv了, 还有我有心思去干retail part-time. 眼睛总往两边瞅,什么都想干干瞧瞧, 还有就是我要搬家的事情总掉着我, 恨不得现在就搬了,用室友的话说就是, 过你们的小日子。 最近美国的三爷也要来救援我一下, 说到美国来工作多好啊, 住我这里就好啦, 很多工作随便选拉。 眼前就浮现出一片碧海蓝天阿。。。 再看这里,就跟麦克给我得简讯里说的, 出门别忘了兜里放几块石头,免得被吹跑了。 出门戴帽子还得是防雨的。
还有就是我亲爱的就要回国了, COCO在我心中可是非常重量级的人。 我跟她, 她跟我,按我们的话就是: 没得说的。 我们是在爱丁宝认识的, 相处下来有7年了, 怎么说呢, 虽然说我们不是从小一起长大的, 但是我们可以讲是同甘苦共患难的朋友,用于秋雨的话讲就是, 成熟期以前的朋友都不算真正的朋友, 只算一起的玩伴。 COCO以前跟我说过, 见到以前很要好的朋友, 觉得他们改变的太多的,就像余秋雨说的, 叹一声气, 笑着回忆以前的事情, 即使是玩伴也很好。 COCO IS A VERY NICE PERSON, 她没有一些国内独生子女的很多坏习惯, 我们都有一样的MORAL STANDARD!!! 这就是因为我为什么那么爱她, 哈哈。 我发现现在很多年轻人都没有一个对错的观念, 还有就是人云亦云, 上次我给父母打电话里就说道为什么有些人拒绝做个有大脑的成人,举个例子,如果说有个人要是在别人面前说你长了一只眼睛, 那别的人估计连看都不看你就认为你长了一只眼睛。问他为什么:回:某某说的阿, 麦克还给这起了个很好听得名字:SHEEPY 作风。哈哈, 还有就是不要轻易的JUDGE一个人,因为现在的人都是很复杂的个体, 我们都有双重性格, 如果轻易的作决定那很容易引起误会,这个比方我就不用打了吧, 原来我总认为我们对有些东西的认知是可以随着我们认识世界的程度改变的, 比如说, 小时候你会拿超市里的糖吃不付钱, 长大了你知道这样不好你就不去这样做了,有些我们以前的怀作风和坏习惯也可以随着年龄逐渐去处掉。 后来碰见那么多人那么多事情, 我觉得我是错的。如果我们都遵循这个去做的话, 那我们整个民族的素质也就可以提高上来了。大部分时间我去分析别人是我了解自己的一个过程, 曾经听到过有些人跟我说, 他们是怎么样怎么样的人, 最后跟我了解的完全不吻合!让我有点诧异。 我们成长都会讲MILESTONE的, 那个是什么? 是成长的里程碑,里程碑又是怎么定义出来的呢, 我举个例子,小孩子如果会爬了, 就会算是一个里程碑, 会走路了, 就是一个新的里程碑, 继续下去, 我们的里程碑在哪里呢? 我们的里程碑不是要去学会飞, 是要学会完善自己, 而且,是完善不是完美。 所以如果一个成年人不能正确的认识自己, 那是不是就跟5岁的小孩子不会走路一样 - MILESTONE RETARD 。 我和COCO都是很PRIVATE 的人, 就是讲, 我们都需要一定的个人空间的人。 有些人讲我要和朋友24/7待在一起, 否则就要哭就要闹。受我一拜! 这个新年敲响钟声的时候我接到是COCO的电话从伦敦打来让我也能听到烟花的, COCO说如果你在伦敦就好了, 没有你我总觉得这个新年没有COMPLETE, 我这里何尝不是呢。不了解的人永远也不可能了解友情的升华是什么样的, 我以前也不相信会有如此的事情存在, 直到有一天你见到了感受到了也就体会到了。新年我许了很多愿, 为我爱的人, 家人朋友。 在这里我希望COCO在国内能继续作她自己, 不被坏的作风影响, 坚持自己的原则, 追随自己的理想。找到一个负责任知道照顾自己的好男人。 当然了要能说英文的, 到时候美国见啊。 哈哈哈哈。 爱你。 ummmHow are you going to spend the hour you gained today?
on your bed mostly.
something make me wonder today...
I believe most of the guys have wondered about why their girlfriends need their own 'space' at the same time want the intimacy. The best way to describe this is, when you set up your own personal blog and you want people to read your daily ramblings but you dont want them to comment on it, it's like read my things and bugger off guys. Have you ever felt the same way?
essays in love. recommended book
bye now ITITTM
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Happy EasterThis is exactly how i feel every morning. haha... 忍了几个月了... 今天终于下决心重装了系统, 虽然没有我一直顺手用的紫光, 微软的也就凑和了. 昨儿跟RH电话上聊了几个小时, 说了一身汗,哈哈, 跟RH说话就是不一样, 激动.... 说的今天我都特HIGH...哈哈... MIC在旁边又捣乱, 我就知道他早上给我个大背心穿别有用心... 两边露的厉害... 哈哈哈哈. 他还挺严肃的看我打的什么, 小样的看也看不懂, 就知道哈哈是LOL... 可能是我老哈哈了... 哈哈哈哈...
真盼望你考完了咱们就杀出去玩... 再叫上城堡... 咱们去SKYPE小岛漂流, LD逛街吃小点心去, 嘻嘻... 有你们在生活就是幸福啊... (RH你要是看到我写的准能想象出我现在啥表情, 哈哈) ... 早就说咱们应该出本书, 我给你写提纲... 写从咱俩刚认识还迷恋麦当劳的HAPPY MEAL送的小玩具到...认识城堡给扇动去教堂然后认识BEN, STE和她那些相思日记的事... 从咱们在FERRY R.6/4时候跟脚丫晚上自己吓虎自己的打RESIDENT EVIL到认识一些 '道上' 的神人... 哈哈... 从PAUL他弟弟百里传狐臭...到忍不住在JENNERS笑那个SALE ASSI (弄的我现在都不好意思再进去,怕他一使小梅花指我又忍不住... 哈哈) ...再到谢绯的王心煮...哇哈哈...从咱们都不知道爱情是什么到那种心一沉的感觉... 从很多很多... 起起落落... 咱们都一起过来了... 哎, 时间过的真快啊...
今儿就庆祝我又能写中文了... WOOOO...
Now THAT’S an Easter bunny
He weighs in at 22 pounds and measures a little over 3 feet. He is a breed of rabbit called German giant (how appropriate!). This is his owner, Hans Wagner, struggling to hold him up. From the NY Post article: Wagner said, "We don't feed him an unusual diet. He goes through more than his brothers and sisters, but he eats the same food mix. His favorite food is actually lettuce. He can never get enough of it." LOOK AT THOSE FEET! OMG I WANT ONE>>> I LOVE RABBITS!!!!
Hail to the middle earth :)I reviewed the lord of the rings, and once again i fall in love with it, it took me weeks to search for little bits and pieces of its complete background stories. i have been totally embodied into this fantasy world, i hate to call it fantasy, because i love it so much and i want to believe it was once existed than non at all. I think once i got the whole volume of the book i will do a summary to this middle eath mythology.
Letter to Tolkien
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- For so much magic shed without measure… For all the dreams you awoke once crippled by the reality I face day after day… For the innocence you reveal, striking my soul with a precise arrow… For your certainty in the dreams of a child who faces the World for the first time, who coddled my craziest beliefs… For the deep sensibility you made into flesh, the characters who fill me with admiration, renewing trust in my own strange sensibility… For the friendship melody you sang with no barrier, waking the memory of what I once believed in and aimed for… For the Divine power of destiny you quietly slipped in to an eternal story, causing me to grab a stone that hangs from my neck with emotion — as Frodo once held an Elvish stone in his deepest agony… For the sweetness and detail you marvel at, in each living being, reinstating my trust in the human being… For the secret jubilee we had all forgotten in a corner of our own souls, reborn in its purest expression in the image of Elves; that takes my spirit to remote times and places where it was nothing but wandering energy in an unknown world; before it was made flesh in earth-worries and shallowness… For the wise and subtle way in which you show our poor reality: beggars for a power that exceeds our knowledge, desperate wanderers in search of something we forgot, lost long ago in the restrained memory that dominates us… For revealing the reason of our misery; the oblivion of marvelous things and extraordinary powers, giving us the base to correct our mistake of indifference and wrongful thoughts of magnificence… For relieving the grey routine of my days, filling my senses with far off countries, fresh herb scents and harmonic songs… For the unconditional tenderness you give away, and for waking quiescent dreams, chasing away the desolate shadow that covers over hope... For all the feelings in my soul, for that deepest and purest emotion in the chest, for the excitement and pleasure that fills me with a powerful strength and unbreakable hope… For all this and much more that my words cannot describe, I must thank you; not in simple thought and word, but with all I can offer as a living spirit; a manifestation that exceeds my most effective movement–an eternal, honest expression rising from the core of what I really am or was, though I ignore its origin, complexion and real power… Simply, from no greater source than my words… Thank You.
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TOPJust a quick update of what i been doing these days,
I watched the movie 'walk the line', normally i have no interest of such 'pilgrimagic' 'act', barely some commercial shaiit, but this movie was a good play, the actor done a good job, love it, more of the music, yeah i love Jonny cash's songs. Brilliant. I cannot get enough of 'wearing black' now. haha
i ordered some books online, cos it is the time, yeah, i have this werid habit of when i should be reading text book to prepare for the exams, ended up im reading most those books outside, um... like i ordered 4 books (ohhh evil) selfish gene, i love the author he always has some very different thoughts. must be a imteresting book to read, and some others i will give a review after i finish them, oh, im currently on Harry Potter the half blood prince, i bought this book ages ago but just started to read it. laziness.
oh im on womans thing again, dont mess up with me or i will turn you into a frog hahahaha.
Man in Black by Johnny Cash
Well, you wonder why I always dress in black,
Why you never see bright colors on my back, And why does my appearance seem to have a somber tone. Well, there's a reason for the things that I have on. I wear the black for the poor and the beaten down, Livin' in the hopeless, hungry side of town, I wear it for the prisoner who has long paid for his crime, But is there because he's a victim of the times. I wear the black for those who never read, Or listened to the words that Jesus said, About the road to happiness through love and charity, Why, you'd think He's talking straight to you and me. Well, we're doin' mighty fine, I do suppose, In our streak of lightnin' cars and fancy clothes, But just so we're reminded of the ones who are held back, Up front there ought 'a be a Man In Black. I wear it for the sick and lonely old, For the reckless ones whose bad trip left them cold, I wear the black in mournin' for the lives that could have been, Each week we lose a hundred fine young men. And, I wear it for the thousands who have died, Believen' that the Lord was on their side, I wear it for another hundred thousand who have died, Believen' that we all were on their side. Well, there's things that never will be right I know, And things need changin' everywhere you go, But 'til we start to make a move to make a few things right, You'll never see me wear a suit of white. Ah, I'd love to wear a rainbow every day, And tell the world that everything's OK, But I'll try to carry off a little darkness on my back, 'Till things are brighter, I'm the Man In Black. ok, i been warned not to read the halfblood prince til i got the very last book together, which still 'in the oven', people say Mrs Rowling will take her time to end HP, and some say if the movie should be coupled with the book, they suspect the book will be out in 2007, for GODs sake 2007 thats almost one more year to go. I sort of knew Mrs Rowling was writing this book six while pregnant with her baby, thats indeed gave me a insight of her mood during her pregnancy, very dim and depressing ending of book six, im devasted to finish it, it hardly was a ending, unlike the previous ones with all the pleasantness finishing, that good always win over the baddies. i hate this long waiting for the final end and the death of my beloved characters inside the book, i cannot believe it. owhhh... anyways, this website has all the inside views from the auther. |
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